afraid of almost everything

Everything, something that is new, and something that is so different from my daily activities. Obvious, i’m not a person who likes challenges, etc. That is why I am going to slowly break that fear by just doing it. The thing which keeps me back is that I am afraid to face the failure. I don’t want to face failure because I will feel so bad towards myself.

But, people always say that ‘if you don’t try, you are already a failure before you even try’, ‘you never try, you never know’, ‘you have to face lots of failures before you can actually succeed’. And know it’s my turn to feel it.

I just hope when I face it, I get the success without failure. HOPE.

PS: I will reveal the reason of why I’m writing this post if I succeed otherwise, I’ll just let this be a mystery…

I think my blog is kind of sad!

with all the sad posts…

or am I just a person who feels sad? LOL.

Alright, I think I just feel useless, that’s why. And I don’t feel happiness that is created by myself for myself. Well, I just thought that self-happiness can be created once you have strong SELF-DISCIPLINE. I have been procrastinating!

Insha allah, i’m gonna start everything today. “You gotta do, what you gotta do!” Everything doesn’t start easy, right? Once you’re on the track already, I guess it will be easier and better than I thought. I’ll shall see…

**Hope to achieve something great that will make me a better and HAPPIER person.**

How do you achieve peace?

When I don’t see the balance in life, I’ll feel disturbed. Balance to me is spiritual, mental and emotional which will be influenced by factors like family, siblings, work, and personal achievement, mindset and outlook. When you don’t feel peace and your life is not balanced,

how can you say that you have live life to the fullest?

the Himalayan Crystal Salt Bar…

I didn’t know I have been using it wrongly until today…

I bought the one with lower quality which has no been polished so it is rough. The seller told that I could just use it and rub on my face and I had to handle the pain !

Ok, thanks to Datin! We met in Johore Bahru this afternoon. I like her face, so smooth and tight though she’s already in the 40s. She had saved my life! [ok, lame]. Yeah, I should wash the bar and rub it and then rub on my face WITH MY HAND. Till around 3 minutes, when I feel the salt then I shall wash.

Ok, I’ve decided to modify. Instead of rubbing it with my hand and then rub on my face, i’ll just soak it in water and pour it slowly on my face and rub! Yay!! 

Today, day number 1! I have 3 pimple scars. urghhh! I dont know whether the scar can vanish after a week???? Let’s see.. heehee.

Ok… 1 more thing, I have to say!!!

I’m admiring Liyana Jasmay’s acting!!! What a cool, sweet girl!

first step? an opportunity definitely

hmm kay… tomorrow there will be having a workshop talking about “Basics of Scriptwriting: How to write a screenplay.” That is cooooooooooooool! I really hope that the talk will not be boring man!

I now remembered writing scripts for my secondary 2 class skit during the Expression Programme to be performed to the whole school. haha .. horrror skit! It’s quite vivid in my mind till now. Cool experience, good old days. Friends were very supporting & helpful.  And my teacher asked how i feel about my own production! hahahaha… but my englsih is suck at that time.. oh now still the same! LOL.

I wish I will one day write real scripts, direct it…

Ok on Friday, there’s Photoshop Workshop (I) … alhamdullilah MIG has put the priority to the members. When I know something about it, I can discuss with Yassin. He seems to be like a charismatic guy who I can learn a lot of things from him.

edit: haha.. Photoshop Workshop has been postponed due to H1N1 until further notice.

I hope skills that i will be getting in future/any gained skills….

will not be a waste and useless for me. Insya Allah.

Alhamdulillah by today, i’ve memorised 8 GUITAR CHORDS – A, C, G, E, D, Em, Dm, Am. That’s no big deal I guess but then it’s better than nothing. There’s around 7 more basic chords to memorise so there’s total of 15 basic guitar chords to know. 

Besides that, I took around 1 week to practise strumming Em-G-C-D.. wooo it was quite a stressing experience because it is my first time trying to strum as fast as possible but then it is not yet fast enough.Ohh God!!!!

After all the 15 basic chords, I’ll memorise BAR CHORDS. Oh I haven’t read the Guitar Music Theory!

I don’t know how far can i go with this skills that i’m getting. Will i come to a stage whereby i will be able to compose my own song? Oh God, I love Attia, Kammah & Sofia. There are so creative that they can produce their own lyrics, music and sing them. How talented? I don’t know whether talent can be looked for like someone may not have the talent but they got it in a form of skills? Is that logical? Yeah and also Bashar! Nice voice! Piano skills & guitar skills! Cool!

One day, which will not be faraway, I want to compose my own songs. Insya Allah. In any way which i have not yet find out, i am going to make a portfolio to show to the future potential boss and make him employ me? Does that make sense?  I’ll be using FL studio and Cubase as well. Insya Allah i get a long of help from my friends.

Oh yea, Yassin from Facebook! He is persuing stuff that i have been wanting to try out like acting, directing, video editting, graphic designing, lyrics writing and photography! Oh God!!! Having him as a friend is a potential opportunity! But I don’t know where to start to get some of his knowledge and experience!

Can I ask him lots of questions and will never make him get annoyed?! urggh! Takot! LOL.

OK, so after everything, at the end of the day, I will have some skills in Guitar, Graphic designing, Song composing, Film making process which include editing, directing, producing, acting and Photography. I guess even though I make not have the certicates, having some convincing portfolio is good enough but I’M NOT SURE!

I guess, once you know that you’re interested in something, just go for it because there’s some potential in doing well, bismillah.

OK, please don’t put aside my DCRSM! My foot reflexology and bekam skills! These 2 skills are good to do ibadah but & business. Don’t take the word ‘business’ as something bad!  Sabda Rasullullah yang bermaksud: “90% rezeki yang Allah berikan kepada manusia di dunia ini, adalah melalui perniagaan.”

So, I really hope skills that i want to persue and will be persuing will not be a waste, insya allah. Aaamiin ya rabbal ‘alamin.

10 lancet & 200 jarum dari Jakarta

Sampai di Singapore uda beberapa hari sebelum diterima pada 2 June 2009. Katanya Ttipan Kilat, dah 3-4 kali ke rumah tapi tidak ada orang! Terus katanya lagi, dia minta alamat lain yang bisa dihubungi?! Titipan Kilat, you’ve got problem??!

Tumben, ko ga bisa ditemui tu alamat?  Haha, tapi gpp juga sih.

Terima kasih KAK RINA atas bantuannya. Rasa ga enak ain uda repotin kk sama kk iparnya kk, pak ibnu shina. Tapi Ain sama bapak suka banget ma lancet & jarumnya. Bagus, very satisfying gtu lho! hehe…

Mudah-mudahan ya. Memandangkan 10 lancet sama 200 jarum itu harus terbang ke Singapore pake pesawat, semoga aja ia bisa mendatangkan rejeki yang banyak sekali lewat bekam di sini. aaamiiiin.

 

Today: Giving Mum the first foot reflexology therapy

After completing the course on RWO SHUR REFLEXOLOGY TECHNIQUE for 16 hours on 24 May 2009, only now I gain the confidence to try on my mum. LOL. [the certificate is so small sized! I did it on purpose]

 It is not the official course yet. It was only conducted by a professional from Rwo Shur named Saemon Wahid. We had some relationship and he decided to conduct his own class. I like his sincerity in sharing all his knowledge. We cannot get those knowledge from outside teachers and intructors because they are merely doing business. You pay, you gain. No pay, no gain! Haha.

Insya Allah, I’ll get the real certificate from Rwo Shur Health Institute before 20 years old. That’s the official! I can have the right by then after owning a certificate. I can open my own shop when I have the money! 

For the meantime, I will do small business in the name of helping. $35 for the 2 feet, 45 minutes. Can’t be longer than that because per reflex area can covers at most 5 minutes only.  

As for mum, I hope she can sleep tight after I reflexed her.  She spotted some bubbles in her urine and I suspect that it is caused by the acidity in her body. So the important reflex areas that i have covered are the kidney, liver, ureter, bladder and urethra besides some other reflex areas that made up the whole reflexology course.    

I’ll reflex my family members as frequently as I can until everything stick to my mind.

8 KEYS to success…

Passion	Work	Good	Focus	Push	Serve	Ideas	Persist
[Do for love NOT money]   Money comes anyway	[Nothing comes easily]   Have fun doing it…	[Put your nose at something and get DAMN GOOD at it]   Practice, Practice, Practice	Focus on yourself on one thing]	[push, push, push]   You gonna push your shyness, your self-doubt	[to get rich, you serve others something of VALUE]	[Listen, Observe, Be curious, Ask questions, Solve problems & Make Connection]	[you have to persist FAILURE] [you have to persist CRAP – Criticism, Rejection, Assholes & Pressure]

 Gosh…. wordpress just don’t allow me to see the “Persist” column! haha.

“[you have to persist FAILURE]

[you have to persist CRAP – Criticism, Rejection, Assholes & Pressure]“

 

And i’m gonna cut and paste this on the wall and hope it will do something good for me…

What leads to success?

 

8 keys to success

Old Rj question: What are the 2 internal factors that will impact on your decision (future course of action) after graduation?

Just some random stuff… 

There will be 2 possible course of action after graduation. It is either continue with further studies in a university or enter the working world. The decision will depend on the 2 internal factors; my main goal in life as well as my strengths and weaknesses. There will definitely be some external factors affecting my decision.

 

My main goal in life is to be a successful person. Success can mean different things to different people. Some goals towards success can be in a short or long term. If I think that getting a decent job right after graduation will mean a success for me then it would be a short time goal because it only takes 3 years of studying in RP to prepare myself for the working world. However, if I want to get a bigger achievement and success in the future for example, instead of working for my boss, I become my own boss for some multimillionaire companies, then studying for 3 years in RP may not be enough. I will need to further my studies in a different course in order to make myself more knowledgeable and qualified. As this requires a long process and will take years before I could achieve the goal, then this would be a long term goal.

 

Second internal factor will be my strengths as well as weaknesses. For weaknesses, if my poly results are bad, I may want to take a new diploma course or find a job since there will be no chance for me to enter the university. It all depends on my results. If it is very poor, getting a decent job with a high salary is very impossible so I have no choice but to take a new diploma course to secure my future.